I’m clearly an oversensitive cunt today. Think I’d cry at my own reflection.
Something’s gotta give.
“Apparently orgasm is the only point where your mind becomes completely empty, you think of nothing for that second. That’s why it’s so compelling, it’s a tiny taste of death. Your mind is void, you have nothing in your head save white light. Nothing save that white light and ‘YES!’, which is fantastic. Just knowing ’Yes.’”
- Jeff Buckley
So what now?
What am I meant to feel in this second?
This last week has been in a truly horrible week. In the last 7 days I’ve lost two grandparents on separate sides of the family and I’m numb.
I don’t feel upset and I don’t know why. I’m beginning to think I’m slightly heartless.
Tommorow I have to go into my grandmas house and see if I want to keep anything before they throw it away. I’m being given her pottery set that my dad made for her when he was younger because I feel she would want someone to have it.
Monday is my Grandads funeral and I’ve volunteered to be in the first funeral car because my mum can’t face it. I’m dreading it.
Monday is also my dad’s birthday. I don’t even know how old he would have been, 45 maybe.
I just don’t like this week.
I don’t even know what else to write.
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This isn’t going on Facebook because it’s not the place but to my closer friends most of which are on here I won’t be about for a while.
My grandma was rushed into hospital 2 nights ago and I’m currently worried sick about her.
My grandad died today.
I won’t be up to much at the minute. I’m sorry. Can my closer friends let my other ones know who don’t have tumblr.
Thank you.
